We have been Christians since Nov. 17, 1991 and our trust and faith have grown immensely. We believe in a living God who does wonderful miraculous wonders, even today. Back in 1990, after a complicated pregnancy, (you can read all about that by going to Pre-eclampsia; My Story.) I had my tubes tied. Many people influenced my decision, but ultimately, it was my mistake. It was my choice to do this to myself, even though I was heavily influenced by others. At this time, my husband, John, and I were not Christians. Oh, we knew of God, but we didn't KNOW him. As I lay on the table all prepped to go into surgery, the doctor said that he could probably pull me through another pregnancy. But fear kept me from following my heart and getting up off the table. I went through with the surgery.

Now, my husband and I had always dreamed and talked about have 6-8 children and here we where with 3 boys. This was devastating to me. My heart was breaking. But for the next 18 months, I tried to convince myself that this was for the best. I lost all my pregnancy weight and then some. Looked better than I had all my adult life! I was doing things that I never thought I would physically be able to after having had children. But nothing could replace the heartache that I was feeling.

After almost 2 years of this, I started turning to God, because I knew he could do all things. My husband and I went to church with a friend and our life was changed that day. We have never looked back either:) I prayed faithfully that God would heal my tubes and let me conceive a child. But nothing happened.

Then in the fall of 1992, God sent us to buy a house. About a year later, He put us in a wonderful church and introduced us to a couple that had just undergone a reversal! What a wonderful thing! So we started to pray about the reversal. Now, we believe totally that God could reverse the tubes Himself, but because we had done this to me, God wasn't going to correct something that we willing did. (This is not the case for everyone, but was the case for us.) We went through many things in the next four years.

I would ask my husband to pray, send him to his prayer closet and patiently await the answer from God. Most of the time, John would come back to me that day or a few days later and say that God said if we want to then fine. But this was not the answer that I felt at peace with. I knew in my heart that when God said "Go for it" then it would be time and not before.

During this time period, we looked into adoption. God sent 4 different sources to me to give me a word that we should not go through with it. Well, we still opened the door, but nothing ever came of it. This was in January of 1995. Then a year later, I asked my hubby once again to pray and this time God answered. He said, "Go for it!"